On The Other End Of The Wall - May 11, 2004

issac and steven had gone out when i got home from school. they went over to the house of one of issac's exes. there is a possibility that he could be a father, and he needed to talk to his ex about things. when they got back to our house, we were all going to go out for coffee, but issac stayed behind to talk on the phone with his ex further. when we came back, just after parking, steven said, "can i talk to you for a second?"

oh no

i made kind of an unsure sound...i think i made him nervous, because he almost wasn't going to say anything. but then he told me something i'd already figured out; that he's had a crush on me for some time.

i know this situation, just not this perspective.

i tried to be as straightforward and honest while also being sensitive, because i sure know how it feels. boy, do i ever. i felt really bad about it, but i had to tell him the truth.

well, at least i think we'll still be friends. it just has to be faced up to, because our church is so small. and since i'm probably going to be babysitting again, i'll be over at his house.

in other matters, the whole mess that i created in intro to studio is somewhat cleared up. somewhat. school's still lacking for me right now. my dad says it like "hitting a wall." that feels accurate. i need a fresh shot of enthusiasm.

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